My heart is filled with so much joy and love when I see your smiling face every morning as you wake up.

Every time this happens, I think this is exactly how every living being should wake up every morning. 

In these many years of my life, I never imagined I would do this, but I am creating this website (daughters.day) just for you. I want to add all my feelings and all the photos/videos I have of you, here but I know better. However much I may wish, the fact is that the world is not a safe place. 

Nevertheless, I will keep this site up for a few days before I take it down, or remove the content.

You are just 5 months old now, and I am already feeling that you are growing up too fast. I cant forget the day I held you in my palm, with your head resting over my wrist. Tiny as a squirrel. And now you have begin to fill my arms. And I can imagine you will soon be fillig up my lap. 

When you are alseep, I mostly want to wake you up, becaue you look so adorable in your sleep that I want to play with you. But let me also agree that at times when you are awake and are crying incessently, it becomes overwhelming for me to handle you on my own. Thats when I reach out to your mom for help, and I wish you to sleep peacefully. 

So many emotions flush my head every now and then when I see you - At times I begin to imagine that you are a grown up kid, happily going to school, or that you are further grown up and about to get married. Then I laugh on my own imagination, and simultaneously wish for you to grow up a lil slow.. While I am excited to see you in your upcoming phases of life, I dont wish to compromise upon spending more and more time in your current phase :) The dilema would never end I guess.

Anyways, dear, on this first ever daughters day for you, I wish you a very happy, peaceful, long, and fulfilling life :)

I love you dear :)

Sep 24, 2023

Hello again, dear!

Its daughter's day again! Happy daughter's day to my pearl!

Its been a year since I visited this site. So I read my last message to you, and realize every bit in it is still true. You fill up my world and thoughts every now and then. Right now you are at your grandma's place, and yet I am engulfed in your thoughts. (Listening to 'You fill up my senses' as I write this).

Baby, if you read my mails chronologically, you would know the pigeon story. It happened today. It was a bittersweet incident, but it changed me. I did something I could never do before in my life. In the scheme of this world, it's a tiny incident, but for me it is likely gonna change me forever. You made me overcome my fears, you made me stronger, and you gave me reason to fight my inner self to become a better person. While the story was casual, the one line that rests with me is - I could do a tough (may be impossible for me) task, when I thought of you. You gave me, and became my strength.

But you know what, you change me in both ways and in both directions. I can also remember an incident from a few years ago where I did something which I would probably not do now. So in a way, you also make me timid. You also make me more cowardly and less daring. It's not a bad thing however, and most of the world would agree (especially your mom). It's just a new way to look at things. Daring is not always the best attitude. The story I am referring to here took place in Seattle, near a water stream. That's a story for another time, but I feel you have brought about changes that only you could bring about. 

All I have to say today is that with you in my life, I am growing stronger in many ways. And I am starting to respect life more, and see things differently. Understand people in ways I never did before. All because of you.

I wish you to continue to give me strength (and scares) for the rest of my life. I will also have your back, and try to be your strength every second I breathe. 

Love you a lot, my baby!

You are the most powerful force in my life!

Have a wonderful, fun filled, and adventurous life, dear!

Love, dad!

Sep 22, 2024

Hi baby!

Just read the 2 columns above. Eevry time I read them I wish to add more thoughts to them. It feels like I was not fuly able to express myself. Looks like thats how it will remain (and I wish it does remain) forever. As it would mean that I always feel more for you than I can write. I used to think earlier that I am able to express myself well in writing, but not anymore.

Everytime you are away for some reason like being at Nani house, etc everyone here misses you dear. You fill up the entire house with your laughter, screams, and playful runs from corner to corner. So not having you around makes the space filled with a deafening silence. Even the house maids (who end up spending half the time handling your mess rather than household chores) miss you when you are away.

A funny thought that came to my mind a few days back when you woke up from your sleep suddenly.. I am not sure if I should call it a nightmare or just a simple dream, but you seemed to have seen someone stealing your mango in your dreams.. And you woke up in a rush, sat down, searching for mumma with one hand (lights out), and groping for the stolen mango with the other. You said 'dadu mela mando le dya'. Your mom and I couldnt stop laughing and though what a sweet little wonderful world you must have in your head, where mango is the most important item! I cant comprehend what your dreams look like, and what your nighmares would be.

As you may have learned by now, you lisp the k, kha, g, gh sounds, and you appear very sweet singing rhymes with this modality. You are a constant chirper, and extremely talkative. Mamma, me, daddu daddi, bua, fufu and all your siblings love to have you sit on their laps and talk to you about random stuff. Even when you dont have the right words, you express so damn well just with your face and speech modulation.. We lovvvvve it! I have tons of recordings of you singing poems, talking to your toys, talkng to some imaginary friend on an imaginary phone.. Cant stop laughing just remembering some of those times.. 

Long story short, you continue to be the center of our lives, and however much we struggle to make you a peaceful, calm and disciplined child, the fact is we wouldn't want you to change even a bit! You are the chaos creator in the house, and your chaos is our oxygen! Even right now as

I am writing this, you are playig beside me, trying to put on your mommy's shoes, and exercise like she does. 

By the way, you are turning 2.5 years next month, and have started to go to pre nursery school. Above pic is from your half yearly drawing exam :)

God bless you my dear!

Love, Dad!

Sep 30, 2025 (Sorry, I am 2 days late this time :-(  )